Wednesday, July 7, 2010

"Letter to Myself"

Dear Shella,


Hello, though I know your day isn't good, allow me to say "GOOD DAY!" for formality's sake.


I know you've realized something, otherwise I wont be writing to you. I feel your pain and I bet you're crying while reading this... If I could only make you listen to me when I say "It's ok.", then I would shout it unto your face.


So you're asking about the unfairness of this world, and you want to know if your God is real, 'cause if He is, then why does shit happen?


What I want to say is please hold on, I know you really want to be a bad girl now, a selfish-bratty-bitch, but please.. try your very best no to.


Oh, you're asking me why?
Well hmm.. I don't know, I honestly can't find a reason why, except for the fact that you're a Christian.


Yes, you're a Christian. You believe in Christ and that Jesus had changed you... from bad to good, from good to better and from better to best.. From bad to good! Not from bad to worst


I know it's hard, believe me I know. And I'm running out of reasons to fight for the right thing to do as a Christian, 'cause like what you've said, the world is unfair and the people in it are mean (and that doesn't exclude you). Many deserve a punch on their faces. I feel you. They're really pushing your patience to the limit (although we both know that you have this very little patience).


You see, I really don't know what to tell you anymore, I don't know how the hell will I convince you to stay tamed. To be honest, I really want to say now "Ok go! Show them who you are and what you've got!", but then I still have to remind you, "base your decision, especially your action, not on your emotion."


Yes Shella, use your head. Being so damn emotional can only hurt you more.
And this time, I want you to listen. :)


Consult to me again when you need to, and though I know that you're not really listening, I'm just here.. Always here. :)




Thinkingly Yours,
brain.




P.S
Your God is real, because if He's not, the world and your life will be way much chaotic. :)
Oh, and about your thought of not getting married.. I think it's a good idea. :)

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