In case you are going through dark times again, where everything is confusing and you seem to lose yourself, wondering why you should need to continue existing, where depression and anxiety are being dominant. I am here to tell you that you are not going through it alone. Most people go through that phase many times in their life and here I am to help you go through this darkness. Let me aid you, with the little light I have, to help you take steps toward the end of this dark tunnel.
I know you feel alone but believe me you're not. Continue trusting and keep the faith that God is with you. There will be times you won't feel His presence in this fight but He's there, just continue walking and soon you'll realize that He indeed never left you. In fact, He is carrying you. Remember the footsteps on the sand? That is a fact.
Aside from that, please accept that you need help. First, from God. Get to know Yeshua (Jesus). Have a relationship with Him. I am a living testimony that He saves. I wouldn't survive this darkness if I haven't have a relationship with Him. I have accepted Him as my personal Savior and believe me when I say He'll keep saving you. All it takes is a faith with a size of a mustard seed to see His glorious works in your life. I encourage you to read the Bible for the references of these things I am sharing with you, but first pray and ask God for guidance so you wouldn't misunderstood God's Word.
Another important factor to help you get through these dark times, is having a support system. If you have a partner, you must help them understand what you're going through by telling them exactly what is going on with you. No holding back. All. And if you can't find words to explain because it feels it doesn't make sense or you are afraid of being judged or because it sounds crazy, express it though. And if he's/she's going to leave you because of that, let it be. And you'll know you're with the right person if he/she stays. You gotta trust your partner. That's a major factor to survive the next time you find yourself in dark places again. Support system, can also be your family or a close trusted friend. The technique is, there should be someone you completely trust without hesitation and God must come first on the list.
Another important thing is to bring back your consciousness to your first encounter in this dark place so you could know: (1) who put you there at the difficult situation and learn to let go of it, burn bridges if you must. Learn to prioritize your peace. (2) Who helped you survive, who helped you walk through this life, who kept you going. Keep them by all mean, it's not all the time life blesses you with genuine people who'll help you get through dark times. By doing this, you get to know and reclaim your fight and that the battle is not yours but God's. The reason why you are at the very moment where you are. Why you need to keep existing. Perhaps, your ikagai or your new ikagai, if you happen to have finished your previous ikagai. Create or just do something nice for your soul and wellbeing.
It will be tiring, believe me it will be. I myself don't want to continue anymore because it's tiring. I actually have prayed to God to let me be with Him. But there are parts of me that want to survive these dark times, to keep going, to take one step at a time because oo nga pala, the battle is not mine but His. And as I take steps, I am able to see more of God's signs and wonders and His marvelous works. It straightened my faith.
I hope we all get through these dark times and find ourselves trusting God even more than before that we cannot doubt Him anymore because we have experienced Him so much.
I'd love to keep seeing you at the end of the dark tunnels. Let's not lose the source of our light, or the light Himself -- Jesus. Okay?
