Have you ever been to a place where you don’t want to be at
all? A place where you don’t want to
ever return but you know for a fact that sooner or later, you’ll be facing that
same place again whether you like it or not.
Decision making. This is one of the places I don’t want to
find myself standing at. I am not talking about those simple decision makings
here. I’m pertaining to those decisions that will greatly affect my life.
Although, I admit that most of the time it took me quite long on deciding over
simple matters. I guess it just so happen that it’s one of my major weaknesses
– the ability to be decided. And let me just remind you that we all have
weaknesses.
Actually, I have learned to embrace the reality that making
decisions are part of life, even before I have considered myself matured.
Minute by minute, we make decisions. And with just a matter
of second, we choose something over something. But when you are choosing over
some things that will change your life, that’s the time it becomes tougher and
harder; that’s the place where I don’t want to be.
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You may give me the hardest brain twister or math problem or
Sudoku puzzle and I will be more than willing to solve them all, but please
spare me the ‘decision making’ part. If only I can hire someone who knows me
well enough to make decisions for me, I will. It’s a good thing that I can’t;
otherwise my friends will be having a freaking broke friend.
I’m also thankful that God is always ready to help me
whenever I’m stuck in that place, however, sometimes I wish I can literally
hear His voice so that it will be easier for me to know and choose His will.
Yes, I have a relationship with God. I do pray and read the Bible but sometimes
it’s hard to really see what He wants me to choose. Sometimes it’s hard to know
the right decision, especially when the choices seem good. And that puts fear
in me, because I might get deceived and make a wrong choice.
Don’t get me wrong, I know and I always believe that God
will make me see things which will lead me to the right choice but still I
can’t deny the truth that I hate the process of choosing. Yet still, I’m not
closing doors to learn more and master the art of it.
