Rain in my different perspective.

Usually, life gets depressing when it's raining. I don't know about you, but for me, rain gives me the feeling of loneliness, irritation and most of all laziness. And I get accustomed with these feelings whenever it rains, which made me forget the beauty that it could give me.

I almost forgot how wonderful it feels like to play with the rain until I dance along with it again after how many years. That made me realized that I'm getting old because only a child and a child at heart could enjoy every raindrop on their skin that I almost failed to do. And I don't like that idea -- that I'm getting old and I'm starting to be one of those adults who take life seriously, and failing to see the other side of things, which they can possibly do back when they were younger.

Actually in reality, life is way too easy, it's just us who are making it complicated. So what if it's raining? Why don't we just grab the opportunity to listen to its sound and realized that it's actually a music. Why don't we try to play along with it and get soaking wet just like how we do it when we were younger.  "Feel the rain on your skin", like what a song said.

Be glad on whatever life gives you and in order to do that, you must learn to see things in a different perspective. God has a reason for everything.

And by the way, call me immature if you want to, I really wouldn't mind. I don't want to get old. It's always fun to be a child.

I'm not scared to die!

I'm not scared to die, I'm scared on how will I die and how painful will it be.


I'm not scared to die, it's just that I don't want it to happen now. I still haven't given my best to God.


I'm not scared to die, but I sure do hope to live long enough to fulfill my dreams.


I'm not scared to die, infact, I'm much scared to lose my ability to write than dying.


I'm not scared to die, But I'm still finding the very reason why God granted me to exist.


I'm not scared to die, but I want to know when will it be, so I could stop doing my responsibilities and do what I really like to while preparing my death party.


I'm not scared to die, and if it happens earlier than we expected, I want my super close friends to know it immediately. For they are very close to my heart, and I don't want them wondering why I'm not keeping in touch anymore. Tell them immediately that I die.


I'm not scared to die, for I know that I'll be forever alive in my love ones' heart. And my on-line blogs and noteblogs will hopefully remind them that I existed not just here on Earth but in  their lives. Please do read them, it could teach you many things. It will make you smile, laugh, angry, and think.


And lastly, I'm not scared to die for I know that I'll be with God. I'll be in a place called heaven sooner or later.


(Disclaimer: This is not a death note! I'm not scared to die, but I'm not one of those suicidals. :) )

I'm immature? How about you?

What's the real definition of maturity?

I haven't really thought about the deeper meaning of that word, until last night.

You see, I  want to live my  life the way God wants me to, but I think I need hell lot of strengths to achieve that. And so now, I must admit that I sometimes chose to live my life the way I want it.

I am fond of procrastinating. Once I started to chill and relax, it will be hard for me to move on and start to do things that I should do. It's hard, but I can win it over only if I really want to.

I'm also the kind of person who laughs at all stuffs that she thinks is way too funny. People can make me laugh so easy. And that's one thing I love about my self, the passion for laughing. It's one of my ways to enjoy life as it is.

I'm indecisive most of the time, especially when my decision will affect my life and my future. So, I'd rather go asking some of my close friends than figuring out the right thing to do on my own. That's why I love my special friends. I can surely lean on them whenever I'm in need. I thank God so much for them and for giving a not so loving but caring and real funny family. :)

But let's not talk about myself, let's talk about maturity and it's relation to me, if there's one.

Let's assume that there's a little maturity within me, how will you define it? Nah, you're not getting my point right. Maybe because you're too damn matured than me and you can't understand me because you think I'm immature.. hahahaha. Whatever!! nananana.. :P

Or maybe.. I'm too damn matured than you and you're not getting my point because you don't think like how the way I think.

So, what do you think?

Which is which? :)